quinta-feira, 15 de novembro de 2018
We are getting so close to too late. You are, I am... You are letting it happen, and you don´t even realize it...worse than that, you don´t give a shit. We talk when you want to, we keep a distance when you decide you want to....we are a couple when you feel like it, and become nothing, just like that....no explanations, no fucks given.
We´re getting so close to too late, to a point of no return...and when I get there...you know there will be no way back. No apologies will make any diference, no excuse, no shitty explanation...
We´re almost to the point where I don´t give a fuck. And you know what? I might cry, I might regret it, I might miss you and all that shit...but I´ll know you didn´t deserve me. I might never love anyone else the way I loved you, I might never feel with anyone the way I felt with you, but then again...no one will ever hurt me the way you did...no one will ever make me feel as unorthy and worthless as you made me feel. Disposable, unimportant, indiferent, meaningless....
I may have known great love through you, but I certainly discovered some of the worst feelings ever through you too...deep anger, desperation, doubt, insecurity....
You´ve given me the best and the worst...and that is, I realize it now, what makes your love so addictive... But then again, I know now no addictive love is a good one.
We´re getting so close to too late, and still you think it´s too early for everything we should be living together.
I thought, for a moment, that I was losing you but, truth is, YOU are losing me...slowly but steadily...you are losing me.
Even though I feel like crying my heart out right now, I will not...you do not deserve these tears of mine...not now...not today, not tomorrow...
I would hope you would have had the courage and loyalty to be honest with me by now, but still....you don´t give a shit. Having me is too easy for you, no effort needed, just a bunch of lies and everything goes back on track... Well, darling, not anymore...
I am sorry love, but we are getting to too late now.
Goodbye love.
